i hate it how i have to wait to go to my aunts house to go online

but my mom says that im gonna get the internet again when im in junior high

but i still hate to wait

its gonna be about 6 or 7 months
well, heres another poem. wrote when i was supposed to be sleeping, at about 11:30, i couldnt sleep so i wrote this
Finding Love
"I loved you...
But you didn't love me back...
I gave you signs of how I felt...
But...you were clueless, nonetheless,
To be young and clueless and without a care,
How I yearn for those days,
Maybe it's my fault for falling for one so young,
So naive,
But...I couldn't help it,
I told you how I felt with the slip of the toung,
You just thought I was joking,
And I wish that I was choking,
For I might as well be,
The one I love ignores me,
The one I love doesn't take me seriously,
The one I love is with another,
And no, it's not his Mother...
It's another...
One far prettier than I could ever be,
One far smarter than I could ever be,
Though she is both older than you and I,
I can see that you two were meant to be,
I cry deeply,
I sigh deeply,
I sometimes ask myself: 'Why do you love her and not me?!'
I would do simply anything for you,
Anything!!
But all you do is ignore me...
Days have past since you two,
I realize that there was someone here that I loved all along,
You are gone,
Gone from me,
But thankfully, I don't wish to be with you anymore,
I want him,
But I don't know how he feels of me,
But I do know that I care for him deeply,
And that's a good thing,
A very good thing,
As long as my heart is not broken yet again.
I loved you,
I thought you felt the same,
My heart always skipped a beat whenever I heard your name,
But no longer am I that way,
And that is blissful,
But I hope it works out with my other,
I hope he feels the same,
I truly do,
He's so funny,
So nice,
So charming,
Sometimes I fall into a deep daze when I'm around him,
And I have somehow managed to keep it all a secret,
I really hope that he feels the same,
For I don't think my heart could love another,
I want someone to be able to hold for the rest of my life,
That is what I wish,
So I don't care that you're with another any more,
My heart has decided, and it's not you,
But...I'll see you tomorrow,
Best wishes, and please, don't call me tears of sorrow,
No, don't call me that...
Anymore..."
Young Love
"I actually thought it was love,
But it was just a crush,
He was far beyond my years,
I was too young to understand his reason for tears,
I mean, he was nearly the age of my elder brother,
And besides, he had another,
He had others,
But sometimes I wonder if we were the same age,
Would it work out?
Or would I be stuck in a cage,
A cage of misery?
You never know,
I was too young to see,
Why you didn't want to be with me,
I know now,
I'm just a friend to you,
And you just expected me to go play with toys,
And make lots of noise,
You know, the usual kid crap,
How I was foolish back then,
No longer am I now,
Great,
I was so childish back then,
It's a wonder you even wanted to be friends,
Well, in the end,
I know that you got my back,
Cause we're friends,
Friends to the end,
I hope...
I hope we'll always be friends,
I know that's all I could ever be to you,
But I'm still happy as long as I'm near you,
Until the end,
We'll always be friends..."