lets just call this topic lemon, for lack of a better word.
Posted: Apr 17, 2007 10:47pm
first off, i have no sentence structure and grammar is gay. second off, if you intend to be judgemental, mean and baised and unable to listen to others, get the hell out of this thread. i dont want to hear it and im pretty sure no one else does. lastly, if you disagree with what i have to say, then fine. opinions are respected around here, but learn to hold your tounge at some point, and i will do the same. as a side note, its nice to have opinionated people but being rude isnt an opinion, its being immature. so if its seen in here; never let it be said that i wasnt accommodating to tell you to grow the hell up.
on with the thread. im writing to you all, to aa as whole, to express what i have in mind. ive been here and there through out the aa board and its kind of unmoving ot see everything that aa has become. im not saying aa is becoming a pisser hole, or anything. i just want to let you all know that aa feels like a betral lately. and, i wont point fingers at anyone to try and single them out. i feel like aa is a whole. altohugh we are individuals, we are one. and we need to act upon better judgment rather then tedious vendettas.
on a personal note, im sick of what is being said about myself and other moderators [to be unnamed.] im not going to talk as a moderator to everyone, im talking to you as a person. a lot of users seem to think that im the aa hag who just wants to ruin everyones fun. thats fine, think what you want. but you cant make me who i am. if you took the time to consider it, to look at the way i talk and treat people, i hope you will come to realize that i do try my hardest to treat others kind and fair. but im only human. i make mistakes too. and i dont take lightly to being told im wrong. i admit that. im hard as hell to admit to being wrong, and thats a flaw im trying to fix as a moderator. but as a user, im just me. im just another person who enjoys anime/manga and enjoys to talk about it and bring out the true nerd inside. and we all know that no one is the same, so please dont try to mold me into a perfect user or a perfect moderator. cuz i can tell that some of you think i am unfit to be amoderator. thats okay though. you may be right on some level, but you are wrong if you think that i dont try my hardest to help aa. ive been trying very hard to give insight and recieve insight as well. and when you all yell at me and bring up arguement that have happened years ago, it will go in one ear out another. i dont want to dwell on anything that has happened in the past. what has happened is just as it is. there is no changing what has already been said.
im trying to mold myself around the new aa, but im the first to say i quit. and a person i hold dear to my heart, ken, the webmaster, is first to say 'dont give up just yet'. he does have faith in me, and all of the users, all of hismoderators and this site. he holds a pasison for this place, or else why would he take the time out of his day? he has put a lot into this place, and i think he has done all he can for the time being. so, just a suggetion, dont bite my head off for it; why cant we, for onmce, take it upon ourselves to step up to the plate? its not an individual task, its something all of aa needs to do. as a whole. because by being an active member here, you are apart of aa and have say in what goes on. use your voice to give out words of caring, compassion, tough love and constructive critisism. and, maybe there are a lot of young people here. but by registering here, you agree to an unbreakble vow to try your hardest to be apart of aa and help like others do.
if you hate me and wish to send hatemail, then okay. go ahead. any mail i recieve will be replied. i tend to miss some here and there, i run a busy life.
but, now, as a moderator, i wish all of you to know that i feel betrayed by aa. that this place was once a resort, a place to run to, and now its what i run from. i hate being here most of the time. people are so rude and think only of themselves at times. and while that isnt a horrible thing, its a selfish thing.
moderators, most of them, try very hard. and all our hard work goes to the crapper when people blow off our heads by frowning upon our hard work. its okay to disagree with us, i have no problem with that. but what i do hae a problem with, is knowing that others can treat us in haste of anger because we aremoderators. does this title scare you all so much? does it really do that much to you guys? cmon. we arent scary people. in all honesty, were just like you but with a title that ken has given us and power to help him keep this place better.
if you want new moderators, then okay. you have the right to want something. you have that right to say what you feel is best for aa. but what i think is absurd is for people to say something when they only have their personal gain in mind. is it really that hard to think past yourself?
[for some reason some of my post was cut out. so i am going to edit what was cut out.]
as a moderator, i have tried hard. my very best. and i cant put wor din for others. they do what they do. all is said and done. as e retired mod, i feel that all i could do was done in those three years that have long past. im still here to give comforting words and hard words. but, i dont know if that can happen now. i feel hurt by aa. aa has been apart of my life for many years. its given a lot to me. and while i regret being a moderator the entire duration of my time here, i wouldnt change a thing. i wish i could hae experienced life here as a original user, if only for alittle while. but there is no time to dwell. because as of now, i feel hurt beyond expression of words. i feel as if aa has betrayed me and all the efoort i put into it.
you know, three years ago when i joined here, i felt infinite.
but now, i feel useless.
on with the thread. im writing to you all, to aa as whole, to express what i have in mind. ive been here and there through out the aa board and its kind of unmoving ot see everything that aa has become. im not saying aa is becoming a pisser hole, or anything. i just want to let you all know that aa feels like a betral lately. and, i wont point fingers at anyone to try and single them out. i feel like aa is a whole. altohugh we are individuals, we are one. and we need to act upon better judgment rather then tedious vendettas.
on a personal note, im sick of what is being said about myself and other moderators [to be unnamed.] im not going to talk as a moderator to everyone, im talking to you as a person. a lot of users seem to think that im the aa hag who just wants to ruin everyones fun. thats fine, think what you want. but you cant make me who i am. if you took the time to consider it, to look at the way i talk and treat people, i hope you will come to realize that i do try my hardest to treat others kind and fair. but im only human. i make mistakes too. and i dont take lightly to being told im wrong. i admit that. im hard as hell to admit to being wrong, and thats a flaw im trying to fix as a moderator. but as a user, im just me. im just another person who enjoys anime/manga and enjoys to talk about it and bring out the true nerd inside. and we all know that no one is the same, so please dont try to mold me into a perfect user or a perfect moderator. cuz i can tell that some of you think i am unfit to be amoderator. thats okay though. you may be right on some level, but you are wrong if you think that i dont try my hardest to help aa. ive been trying very hard to give insight and recieve insight as well. and when you all yell at me and bring up arguement that have happened years ago, it will go in one ear out another. i dont want to dwell on anything that has happened in the past. what has happened is just as it is. there is no changing what has already been said.
im trying to mold myself around the new aa, but im the first to say i quit. and a person i hold dear to my heart, ken, the webmaster, is first to say 'dont give up just yet'. he does have faith in me, and all of the users, all of hismoderators and this site. he holds a pasison for this place, or else why would he take the time out of his day? he has put a lot into this place, and i think he has done all he can for the time being. so, just a suggetion, dont bite my head off for it; why cant we, for onmce, take it upon ourselves to step up to the plate? its not an individual task, its something all of aa needs to do. as a whole. because by being an active member here, you are apart of aa and have say in what goes on. use your voice to give out words of caring, compassion, tough love and constructive critisism. and, maybe there are a lot of young people here. but by registering here, you agree to an unbreakble vow to try your hardest to be apart of aa and help like others do.
if you hate me and wish to send hatemail, then okay. go ahead. any mail i recieve will be replied. i tend to miss some here and there, i run a busy life.
but, now, as a moderator, i wish all of you to know that i feel betrayed by aa. that this place was once a resort, a place to run to, and now its what i run from. i hate being here most of the time. people are so rude and think only of themselves at times. and while that isnt a horrible thing, its a selfish thing.
moderators, most of them, try very hard. and all our hard work goes to the crapper when people blow off our heads by frowning upon our hard work. its okay to disagree with us, i have no problem with that. but what i do hae a problem with, is knowing that others can treat us in haste of anger because we aremoderators. does this title scare you all so much? does it really do that much to you guys? cmon. we arent scary people. in all honesty, were just like you but with a title that ken has given us and power to help him keep this place better.
if you want new moderators, then okay. you have the right to want something. you have that right to say what you feel is best for aa. but what i think is absurd is for people to say something when they only have their personal gain in mind. is it really that hard to think past yourself?
[for some reason some of my post was cut out. so i am going to edit what was cut out.]
as a moderator, i have tried hard. my very best. and i cant put wor din for others. they do what they do. all is said and done. as e retired mod, i feel that all i could do was done in those three years that have long past. im still here to give comforting words and hard words. but, i dont know if that can happen now. i feel hurt by aa. aa has been apart of my life for many years. its given a lot to me. and while i regret being a moderator the entire duration of my time here, i wouldnt change a thing. i wish i could hae experienced life here as a original user, if only for alittle while. but there is no time to dwell. because as of now, i feel hurt beyond expression of words. i feel as if aa has betrayed me and all the efoort i put into it.
you know, three years ago when i joined here, i felt infinite.
but now, i feel useless.
Do I not count? =( J/k.
Seriously, I wish you never retired. You were always really fun, easy to talk, lenient and you still enforced the rules. Which is what AA needs. As for losing your powers, haha! I've wanted to go crazy but didn't since I thought I was setting a bad example or whatever but you did! And it was awesome, lol. I'm glad someone finally went crazy, lol.