lets just call this topic lemon, for lack of a better word.

[Mai]

first off, i have no sentence structure and grammar is gay. second off, if you intend to be judgemental, mean and baised and unable to listen to others, get the hell out of this thread. i dont want to hear it and im pretty sure no one else does. lastly, if you disagree with what i have to say, then fine. opinions are respected around here, but learn to hold your tounge at some point, and i will do the same. as a side note, its nice to have opinionated people but being rude isnt an opinion, its being immature. so if its seen in here; never let it be said that i wasnt accommodating to tell you to grow the hell up.

on with the thread. im writing to you all, to aa as whole, to express what i have in mind. ive been here and there through out the aa board and its kind of unmoving ot see everything that aa has become. im not saying aa is becoming a pisser hole, or anything. i just want to let you all know that aa feels like a betral lately. and, i wont point fingers at anyone to try and single them out. i feel like aa is a whole. altohugh we are individuals, we are one. and we need to act upon better judgment rather then tedious vendettas.

on a personal note, im sick of what is being said about myself and other moderators [to be unnamed.] im not going to talk as a moderator to everyone, im talking to you as a person. a lot of users seem to think that im the aa hag who just wants to ruin everyones fun. thats fine, think what you want. but you cant make me who i am. if you took the time to consider it, to look at the way i talk and treat people, i hope you will come to realize that i do try my hardest to treat others kind and fair. but im only human. i make mistakes too. and i dont take lightly to being told im wrong. i admit that. im hard as hell to admit to being wrong, and thats a flaw im trying to fix as a moderator. but as a user, im just me. im just another person who enjoys anime/manga and enjoys to talk about it and bring out the true nerd inside. and we all know that no one is the same, so please dont try to mold me into a perfect user or a perfect moderator. cuz i can tell that some of you think i am unfit to be amoderator. thats okay though. you may be right on some level, but you are wrong if you think that i dont try my hardest to help aa. ive been trying very hard to give insight and recieve insight as well. and when you all yell at me and bring up arguement that have happened years ago, it will go in one ear out another. i dont want to dwell on anything that has happened in the past. what has happened is just as it is. there is no changing what has already been said.

im trying to mold myself around the new aa, but im the first to say i quit. and a person i hold dear to my heart, ken, the webmaster, is first to say 'dont give up just yet'. he does have faith in me, and all of the users, all of hismoderators and this site. he holds a pasison for this place, or else why would he take the time out of his day? he has put a lot into this place, and i think he has done all he can for the time being. so, just a suggetion, dont bite my head off for it; why cant we, for onmce, take it upon ourselves to step up to the plate? its not an individual task, its something all of aa needs to do. as a whole. because by being an active member here, you are apart of aa and have say in what goes on. use your voice to give out words of caring, compassion, tough love and constructive critisism. and, maybe there are a lot of young people here. but by registering here, you agree to an unbreakble vow to try your hardest to be apart of aa and help like others do.

if you hate me and wish to send hatemail, then okay. go ahead. any mail i recieve will be replied. i tend to miss some here and there, i run a busy life.

but, now, as a moderator, i wish all of you to know that i feel betrayed by aa. that this place was once a resort, a place to run to, and now its what i run from. i hate being here most of the time. people are so rude and think only of themselves at times. and while that isnt a horrible thing, its a selfish thing.

moderators, most of them, try very hard. and all our hard work goes to the crapper when people blow off our heads by frowning upon our hard work. its okay to disagree with us, i have no problem with that. but what i do hae a problem with, is knowing that others can treat us in haste of anger because we aremoderators. does this title scare you all so much? does it really do that much to you guys? cmon. we arent scary people. in all honesty, were just like you but with a title that ken has given us and power to help him keep this place better.

if you want new moderators, then okay. you have the right to want something. you have that right to say what you feel is best for aa. but what i think is absurd is for people to say something when they only have their personal gain in mind. is it really that hard to think past yourself?

[for some reason some of my post was cut out. so i am going to edit what was cut out.]

as a moderator, i have tried hard. my very best. and i cant put wor din for others. they do what they do. all is said and done. as e retired mod, i feel that all i could do was done in those three years that have long past. im still here to give comforting words and hard words. but, i dont know if that can happen now. i feel hurt by aa. aa has been apart of my life for many years. its given a lot to me. and while i regret being a moderator the entire duration of my time here, i wouldnt change a thing. i wish i could hae experienced life here as a original user, if only for alittle while. but there is no time to dwell. because as of now, i feel hurt beyond expression of words. i feel as if aa has betrayed me and all the efoort i put into it.

you know, three years ago when i joined here, i felt infinite.
but now, i feel useless.

[Bambi]

Aw shucks.

I don't really know how to respond to this, the only thing I can say is that I'm sorry that you feel betrayed.

Personally, I can see where you're coming from with this and I can relate but I better leave it at that. -_-;;

ily Mai =].

P.S: That was a sh!tload of writing and with the little font, my eyes are gonna be hurting for a week now.

[Sasami Jurai]

Well, we just need these immature AA users to learn some manners and stuff. >.<
Yeah, the reason we join AA is that we enjoy anime. There is absolutely no reason to be so rude to other users when on chat or forums. We're just here to talk about anime, have fun, and relax ourselves. People who are rude to other users definitely deserve to be kicked out of the place because the forum and chat is created for AA members, who are supposed to respect other fellow AA users. Like I said before, I'm sure AA is to make people happy. Originally, Absolute Anime is a site that gives awesome anime informations. I'm sure that when the forum is made, people are supposed to express themselves, but nicely. AA is not created for people to bicker or trigger angriness towards each other. It's absolutely stupid and pathetic to argue over the internet.

Moderators are doing very well. Only immature users think they suck, but the immature users are the ones who suck. Rude users need to take their pathetic rage out somewhere else, NOT AA. Anyway, moderators should definitely be appreciated by users because they work soooo hard to make AA a better place and attain criticism for things they should not have been criticized of in the first place!!! They should not be hated at all, and if a moderator really abused his or her powers, then he or she should get reported. I totally love the current moderators. They do very well on their job and should continue doing what they are doing.

And Mai, don't feel betrayed by AA. No need, because immature AA users should not count because they deserve to be kicked out. -_-"

[Mai]

is this better? o.o

or is this? =]

ily too sewina. <3


and i dont know if any of that will be read by anyone. i guess their lives are too important and my mind is just too unimortant for others to care.

[Sasami Jurai]

Hey...I read. Do I not count? =( J/k.

[Mai]

im going to abuse my power and double post. ^^ +cupcake.

unless someone posts before me o.o


anyways. i think that the immaturity will grow before it disperses...disperse? e.e how ever you spell it. =|

immaturity has been here since the dawn off aa. itll never fully leave. i think users, and myself, i guess, just needs to adjust their M.O's. if you know what i mean. its one thing to be immature by lack of understanding, its another thing to use immaturity as an excuses for biggotry and patronizing.

[Mai]

Hey...I read. Do I not count? =( J/k.

you beat me in the reply race. =[

[Sasami Jurai]

Well, when I said 'immature users', I should've been more specific. Immature users are users who do not change their rudeness and stupidity when they are asked to do so by admins and moderators. For instance, if a user gets banned once and is asked to not do the immature thing again that caused the user to get banned in the first place, the user should stop or else they'll be known as 'immature user'. If he/she kept coming back and kept being disrespectful, perverted, or too lame to be noticed 'cause of continuous and lame insults and cussing, then that user should get kicked out....unless he/she changes earlier, of course. o.O

Anyway, sorry if you don't understand what I just stated.

[Mai]

XD! i think i did. o.o
but im not sure.
o.O


what youre saying is repeated offenders should be given on chance, break it, they will have a second, break that too, then life ban?
=O

if thats not what you meant, i still like the idea. lol

[Sasami Jurai]

XD! i think i did. o.o
but im not sure.
o.O


what youre saying is repeated offenders should be given on chance, break it, they will have a second, break that too, then life ban?
=O

if thats not what you meant, i still like the idea. lol

Yeah, unless you think they can't change. You'd have to be God to decipher the imbecilic user's intentions. XD

[josh :)]

I was a moderator once. And at first i was enthusiastic and did the best I could. Slowly that disappeared as I realised i got absolutely no recognition for it, and though that wasn't why i was doing it in the first place, i felt aa would probably be just as fun if i didn't do it. Then i slowly resorted to abusing my powers, and i think i retired then lost my mod powers alltogether becoz i was an absolute jerk

anyway, the point is, i have much admiration for you .LU3! becoz even after all the crap it appears u cop, ur still trying hard. and it wasn't something i managed to do. i quit.

[Hey]

Yarrrgh, shiver me timbers! Ye made me heart shake like a jellyfish.

[Mai]

I was a moderator once. And at first i was enthusiastic and did the best I could. Slowly that disappeared as I realised i got absolutely no recognition for it, and though that wasn't why i was doing it in the first place, i felt aa would probably be just as fun if i didn't do it. Then i slowly resorted to abusing my powers, and i think i retired then lost my mod powers alltogether becoz i was an absolute jerk

anyway, the point is, i have much admiration for you .LU3! becoz even after all the crap it appears u cop, ur still trying hard. and it wasn't something i managed to do. i quit.

ten points for being honest about your moddy thing, love. =]


and bubbles. you are my mj operated lover. ily<33


but ANYWAYS.
it seems that crap still flings to the fan these days when it comes to aa.
i just read a thread that mc ace posted.
and it kinda made me want to laugh
and then it make me want to start a plague. o.o



BUT STILL. im thankful for you guys reading what i have to say.
and taking the time to reply.
mucho gracias lovely buttercups. <3

[Martin Luther King Jr.]

The problem I see is the serious perversion going on here, and the scary thing is it goes on unnoticed. I could personally name this user, I shall say that while he is a 'respected' member of AA, he is one of the creepiest most disgusting individuals here. The first step to making this site better will be removing this stain from the hands of AA.

[Bambi]

I was a moderator once. And at first i was enthusiastic and did the best I could. Slowly that disappeared as I realised i got absolutely no recognition for it, and though that wasn't why i was doing it in the first place, i felt aa would probably be just as fun if i didn't do it. Then i slowly resorted to abusing my powers, and i think i retired then lost my mod powers alltogether becoz i was an absolute jerk

anyway, the point is, i have much admiration for you .LU3! becoz even after all the crap it appears u cop, ur still trying hard. and it wasn't something i managed to do. i quit.

Dude! You were one of my favourite mods! I know I never really acknowledged it because I didn't think you needed to be told. Seriously, I wish you never retired. You were always really fun, easy to talk, lenient and you still enforced the rules. Which is what AA needs. As for losing your powers, haha! I've wanted to go crazy but didn't since I thought I was setting a bad example or whatever but you did! And it was awesome, lol. I'm glad someone finally went crazy, lol.

And I have to agree with the last bit of your post too, Mai is a fighter =]. Don't stop doing what you do best.

And Thomas Nast, I agree. Hopefully he stops or just leaves AA. Leaving is the best.

[Hey]

The problem I see is the serious perversion going on here, and the scary thing is it goes on unnoticed. I could personally name this user, I shall say that while he is a 'respected' member of AA, he is one of the creepiest most disgusting individuals here. The first step to making this site better will be removing this stain from the hands of AA.

Who are you referring to?