Hey everyone, so I have been thinking a lot

[Shining Star]

do you ever think at some point its time to grow up? That friendships are meant to once be, then to let go? I have contemplated deleting my account and just kind of leaving, moving on, and starting life with a new laugh track. So to speak. seems like life is in need of actually-for once-starting a fresh.


the more I linger here, the more i wallow in sad memories of what once was and will never truly be.

Man, too many years spent on AA.

Please tell me we'd still be in contact. I'm only still on here for you, honestly. In my heart of hearts, Mai that is the honest to God truth. I teared up a little when I read this and felt my heart sink. I have moved on in some ways from here, but not from you, never from you.

When I went to New York, it proved that, I only was stressed the last day because I thought I'd miss my flight back home. But when I was with you..you were exactly how I had imagined these last five years. The only thing I regret is not drawing you. You were one of the first people that ever truly undrstood me. I never ever once thought of you as just an online friend, and I knew we'd meet one day and it happened. I always knew we had a strong friendship because even throughout our different walks of life, we always picked up where we left off no matter what was going on in our own lives, and I treasure and value that greatly, as I know you do as well.

I'm actually tearing up as I'm writing this...
But if I was holding you back...what kind of friend would I be if I just made you stay? Just please know I'm here...and I don't know if you still have the same number, but I called your phone in a panic when I read this. You know where to find me. I love you. I hope you can contact me back when you can. I left you a message on facebook.

[SASSZAIN]

Y.Y *hugs star*

[Mai]

I suppose that as of late there seems to be no positive uplifting message about life. I feel somewhat disillusioned, or disenchanted or whatever about the fundamentals to human existence and connections that it has almost propelled me into a very sad, reclusive state.

In any event, many people around here (including but not exclusive to; amy, sam, thomas) do however, have the promise of this calm authority of a reasonable soul. While it would most certainly be conducive for a good outcome, if i made the decision to leave, i would irrefutably be left in a state of much mourning and almost somewhat morose to lose those of the aforementioned.

I guess Mai just needs to be loved and in return find someone to love.

:/

I have met a great deal of promising souls here on AA. Most of which I will forget with time (such is the sick, twisted fate of life) and others who will walk my path through life as a shadow of sorts (i will always carry such histories with me; a beautiful destiny). I can easily attest to the fact that I have learned to love a plethora of different people, gained much culture, insight and influence from a great number of people on here. While AA is in itself one of the masses, we are a very unique community.

I have never seen such life saving power from the connections people have made on here, ever before.


Thank you all for contributing to my time spent on here and hopefully the seed of a promising future for AA has been planted (maybe even years ago, in the self-same instant AA was birthed). I do sincerely hope this site never dies out, and that the bonds created only strengthen, never wither and die.

Because no matter who you are-whether you be in a relationship, a friendship, a family or merely acquaintances- the bond between any two humans is a precious and fragile thing. While it can at times begin to crumble and turn to disaster, its always best to remember how beautiful it once was.

I hope i never forget many a names from here. For while I have impacted a slew of people (as portrayed through the replies in this thread alone), each and everyone of you have left an imprint on my heart. I will be forever grateful for such a service, and I will always reflect on this site as being a integral and fundamental experience within my life that has shaped my childhood upbringing, values, morals and my person in entirety.

I love you all!

-Granny Mai. ;3

[SASSZAIN]

^ that actually brought tears to my eyes

we luv you too mai

[Shining Star]

I second what Sass said.

Just remember, as I said long ago, (it certinaly feels that way because of how fast life moves) I would gladly live or die for you Mai. And I don't say that for many. I'm never too far away and I know in my heart we will remain in some form of contact. I love you for many different reasons, one being you're like the sister I never had. If it wasn't for AA, I do not know where I'd be today.

I love you.