"Memories"

[MARS4]

Okay, this isn't exactly a poem or anything, it's just feelings and things that I've thought about and had for a long time and I've finally been able to write them down. I do plan on making drawings to go with the words that I wrote to go with it.
I wrote it just this evening, April 2th, 2008. Here goes:

"The flutter of the birds in the air awakens me from my deep slumber. I had one of those dreams again. But... it felt as if I were still awake the whole time. Perhaps it wasn't a dream?
I sit up in the field of tall grass and plants, only to be greeted by the wind, which pulls the clouds away so quickly, I cannot make out the shapes. They were also in my dream. Or was it really a dream? The flowers and bushes, the fresh, clean, cool air... The old houses I dream of, the trees, the wind and the water... is it real, or all part of another world, made out of my imagination? Or the long-lost memories of long ago... I ask myself that everyday.
Where are all these memories coming from? Do I really wish and dream to be in the past so badly? Or do these thoughts belong to someone else?
The woods, it's as if they call to me... The woods, oh, how I adore thee. Is it all in my head again, or are these feelings true? I cannot understand, and yet, I feel so used to it; it feels so familiar...
Why can't all these uncontrollable feelings inside of me find out what is real? Is the world real? Am I even real?
Do I even exist...?
Or...
...am I only just a memory?
Floating though the world, to find someone, or something,
That can connect with me... where is it?
Will I ever find true peace, or just be stuck in
this world as a memory, forever and ever...?
Will I continue to be alone in this world, or
will someone come and save me?
Or am I already in the past, unable to be saved...?"

I was thinking about writing more, but I was already out of paper space. XD ph well.
Comment or Critisize if ya want. ^^; Thanks.

[Trishina]

Yeah it's not a poem it's just I guess prating or whatever is the term but it was good.

[ccppfan]

ooh that's good a little sad though. Try writing something that won't make yourself want to suicide (no offense, but the "do I even exist" thing was a little creepy. )